Fuck your Nonviolence, id rather throw the molatev than do your bullshit sit in.

Everyone trying to be trife never face the consequences
you propably only did a month for minor offences
ask a nigga doing life if he had another chance
but then again there's always the wicked at new and advanced
dance forever with the devil on a code cell block
but thats what happens when you rape, murder and sell rock
devils used to be gods, angels that fell from the top
there's no diversity because we're burning in the melting pot

Times are changing

yea right.

so its been an interesting week.

i lost $38 at the casino (KB, Philly Blunt, Ether, and jeremy went as the indestructible force of TEAM IM GONNA GIT YOU SUCKA!)

i had a good week at work

my parents and i fought about money (thank god for kacey becker...without me having the bright idea to go to applebees and have her as our server it wouldve been a terrifying discussion)

so that was the "end" of the bad day. the beginning was in the debate room where tons of drama unfolded...and i mean tons. i hate our team 75% of the time. they are all morons minus a few. i drank when i got home from debate and before i went to eat with my parents....and i drank after...i went to james davis' house. and drank. tequila is still my love.

tribal casinos are now getting blamed in the abramoff case....it cant be the dude that stole $80 million from the tribes...its gotta be the tribes. YOU TOOK THEIR LAND YOU DICKHEADS SO FUCK OFF AND STOP TAKING THEIR MONEY. yea, the casinos arent the best thing in the world, and yes those that are on the reservation dont benefit from them. but its not like the government has done anything good for any of them in the last 500 years so i dont think the republicans have a moral high horse to say what is good for the casinos. bastards.

******NEWSFLASH FROM THE KING OF THE WORLD******

I AM STOPPING DRINKING! from now on i will be completely sober from alcohol...I REPENT FROM DRINKING IT IS BAD FOR ME!

if you believe that statement youre not just naive....youre not just smokin crack....youre a fucking dumbass.

Good day sirs and ma'ams. i love you all. and tequila.

Love and the marriage, love and the marriage

they go together like a horse and carriage, this i tell you brother, you cant have one without the other, love and the marriage, love and the marriage. DUN!

So i started my job as Al Bundy last tuesday. yes, i am partially in charge of the womens shoe department at Kohls, actually its all of shoes, but for glamour i say just women's. Its pretty sweet, i wake up at 5 am to get to work and work the morning shift putting out shoe freight. I am my own boss (i report to my managers obviously, but i have no immediate supervisors).

I started three loves recently.

love 1 - tequila - my lord, tequila + salt + lime = magnificent. at the texas swing was my first experience with tequila shots (It was the connection of the Kansas university and UCO debate teams, via drinks). but i just had another, and im in love with them.

answer to the only question this will pose - will your stopping the use of marijuana lead to an increase of drinking, thus exacerbating alcoholism? - the answer is probably not - ive got too busy a schedule. youre forgetting how good ive become in my schedule....p.s. its been a month since my last attendance problem at kohls, thus proving.

love 2 - gambling - this is only temporary cuz i just got a shitload of money from the university and will end up saying no to it soon. but ive been twice in the last week and am up $165 since i started (it paid for my books). this friday is the third trip. wish me luck.

love 3 - my new puppy - I was informed that i am totally allowed to keep shadow, my black lab puppy. phil and i dropped about a hundred bucks on the puppy last night for bowls and bones and frisbees and the like. its teething so its a fun gig to play with.

i bought a mount for my TV...it allows me to hook the TV to my wall, so it saves alot of space. fun times fun times. Ive gone on a buying binge since i got my last check. i love it. ive almost paid off my kohls charge. i did pay off my cox account. i paid off all the money i owed phil and am in credit to him for $600 in rent (meaning that i dont have to pay rent again till april 1st.

times are great right now, ive never been more pleased.

only bad thing...my window broke in the down position, so every morning ive been drivin to work in the cold.

well, im going to bed, later friends....well wait, i usually put a song on here somewhere.

Your homey Hov' in position, in the kitchen with soda
I just whipped up a watch, tryin to get me a Rover
Tryin to stretch out the coca, like a wrestler, yessir
Keep the Heckler close, you know them smokers'll test ya
But like, fifty-two cards when I'm, I'm through dealin
Now fifty-two bars come it, now you feel 'em
Now, fifty-two cars roll out, remove ceiling
In case fifty-two broads come out, now you chillin
with a boss bitch of course S.C. on the sleeve
At the 40/40 club, ESPN on the screen
I paid a grip for the jeans, plus the slippers is clean
No chrome on the wheels, I'm a grown-up for real.

If you feelin like a pimp nigga, go and brush your shouldersoff
Ladies is pimps too, go and brush your shoulders off
Niggaz is crazy baby, don't forget that boy told you
Get, that, dirt off your shoulder

A falsity that soon devolves into "truth", or I got somethin' and it goes thumpin' like this

all you need is my uhn tiss, uhn tiss, uhn tiss

an alethia of indifference evolves to a veritas of difference, The human condition can transform itself quickly without reason into something completely different. A polity of oppression can be transformed from a negative condition to a positive one. Can we change the entire nature of the Polity just by changing the way we view ourselves and the world around us? By rethinking the notion of "truth" can we resist the metaphysical desire and lack to control everything around us? Does it even matter if were successful? We've gone through over 2,000 years of imperialist decimation and seen sovereignty transform itself over 600 times to produce and reiterate its violence, so why the fuck are we so damned scared of trying something different. Between the suicidal terracide were on route to now and the legacy of genocide behind us i think its not too much to ask that we stop acting like dickheads (literally). The real question is do we as a society have the balls and ovaries to look the person in the mirror in the face and say "WE DESERVE BETTER!"?

I dont think so, but i really dont care, ill continue to think differently and attempt to recover myself, if the rest of society doesnt want to...well, whatever.

I want a lover I don't have to love
I want a boy who's so drunk he doesn't talk
Where's the kid with the chemicals?
I got a hunger and I can't seem to get full
I need some meaning I can memorize
The kind I have always seems to slip my mind
But you but you
You write such pretty words
But life's no story book
Love is an excuse to get hurt
And to hurt "Do you like to hurt?"
"I do! I do!"
"Then hurt me."

Debate, ah debate, the love of my last seven years and next seven. So i went to texas for a week for two tournaments. I sware to god sometimes i perform like i cant ever be beaten, and then sometimes its like watching a twelve year old girl trying to shave her legs for the first time, its just painful and messy.

Avery and I went 4-3 in prelims at North Texas, we were 1-3 after day one and had to win 3 straight debates to stay in it, and we did. We lost in Partial Double Octafinals on a 2-1...i hate losing. Technically this is still my freshman year in debate ( i didnt use eligibility my 2nd semester of my frosh year) so ive still got three years of debate left after this year.

At University of Texas at Dallas it was a much different story - I spoke much better at this tourney. We went 3-1 on first day and won our fourth round against the university of Texas. We lost to the 8th seed in the tourney in double octafinals also on a 2-1. We felt much better after that. Either way, were on the road searching for that second round bid to the NDT, I hope it works out, My god weve been working so much, my body is getting worn down. But, this is the home stretch and i gotta do it right.

I got all my scholarships, im getting paid way too much to do this activity. I went to the casino tonight with phil and came out with $104 profit.

My classes are awesome, I have sportscasting (oh wow its awesome), Social Psychology, Economics on Social Issues, and Contemporary Political Issues.

I watched My Boss's Daughter with KB yesterday. It was the most random weird funny as hell movie ever.

We got a puppy, My family and i have a thing for abandoned abused things. After I got adopted over a dozen people (with abusive parental historys) lived with my parents and I, I shared my room with tons of people. And its breathing down into me, Phils grandpa had neighbors who had a cute black laborador puppy, they randomly left one day and didnt feed the dog for weeks, phils grandpa fed it for as long as he could but couldnt do it forever, so we went to perry and got the puppy and it is currently living with us. Its name is shadow, its a girl, every time i play with it I just keep singing 46 and 2 by tool, specifically the lines about "my shadow, my shadow, change is coming through my shadow".

P.S. - apparently my blog is being viewed by more people than zero, so i have a reconciliation - Driving while under the influence of marijuana is not dangerous, in fact every experience i have had has increased concentration at the wheel, i will not do that anymore (im taking a break from the cheeba) but i just wanted to clarify to those who are scared.

I got to see the pistons play the hornets , it was awesome, The pistons won by ten (96-86), Rip hamilton was awesome, it was a great experience, i got a ben wallace jersey out of the deal.


So ive been reading a lot, (and i mean alot) about native americans and native americana. I dont think i disagree with the statemetn that the United States is a bunch of fuckers who needs to be kicked off the continent and then the planet. I was adopted into a native family who was adopted into an irish family, I belong to the culture of the Irish, Apache, and Cherokee, and i couldnt be prouder of my heritage. I am physically white, but i am more than proud about what my grandparents and great grandparents taught me, and it really aggravates me as to what happened to their relatives (and the ones i was adopted into relation to).

A Casey says peace

Come quick, Take a look, hes got gigantic balls, and his money keeps flowing like niagra falls, we all know Jesus Saves, but A Casey Withdraws.

Back again for the show.

I woke up at 5:45 am this morning and went to work at Kohls, after an hour or so i realized that i woke up before the sun came up to come to this store and mark down the trashiest thongs you could ever see down to prices of around $3 so that even poor ugly women can have a chance to look trashy-sexy. I realized three seconds later that my life is definitely on the right track.

so if your mad im on top, then wish me gone,
if youre mad im on the road, then wish me home,
and if youre mad that im right, punk wish me wrong
but after your three wishes, Blow it out your Ass.

Got intoxicated (THC) and went and saw "rumor has it" with Kevin Costner and Jennifer Aniston (i got a call at like ten oclock from KB and i offered ice cream, and then she wanted to see the movie, so i obliged...even tho i knew that i was going to be doing some rambling, whateva it worked out, whateva i do what i want), it was a good movie, i thoroughly enjoyed it.

Quentin was the carver, for those of you who didnt know. Matt was forced to cut off the penis of a transvestite. great season finale for all you nip/tuck fans. by the way, that show is getting progressively more messed up as the days go bye.

I realized that you have to have a physical deformity to work at walmart or shop there. i went to buy something for the house when the roommates were in utah and i swear i never saw so many ugly people in one setting, i couldve swore i just showed up on the day that you got a discount for missing teeth or mullets. Sometimes i think God rocks the ganja a little when thinking of creating folk and is just like "oh, yea dude, this one is going to come out looking like one of the keebler elves fucked Mothra"

speaking of a keebler elf fucking mothra my roommates and amy went to utah for the week. I had the house to myself. some might take such an opportunity to throw lots of parties and have orgies. not me, i liked debate work and fantasy football., i did have two total get togethers but nothing too big. house isnt destroyed, so i did my job. got nolan tv poker and i got phil a back massager for christmas, they got me a big present and its in the mail, excited to see what it is, i imagine and inflatable hooker...that would be fitting for them.

in the mean time i only got threatened by one person in the last few weeks, this guy at averys got a little mad at me when i told his sister that she didnt have any friends...and then kept telling her...and then told him she had no friends, and then told him he had no friends. how i didnt get into a fight is beyond me. he kept yellin and i just kept making fun of him. turned out he was discriminating. he hated all people who made fun of his erectile dysphunction on that particular evening, and that my friend is profiling, and profiling is wrong.

phil has drank the last two nights in a row, this is new for phil, this is usually just something i do, its nice to see hes having a good time.

so you better pump your brakes and drive slow homie, drive slow homie, put your hazard lights on when you see them hoes, drive slow homie.

Got my mark clayton, baltimore ravens jersey from my parents, #89 bitches, it is sweet.

speaking of oklahoma football, with two freshman wideouts the unranked Oklahoma sooners beat the #5 Oregon Ducks 17-14 in the Pacific Life Holiday Bowl with a fourth quarter interception by Senior Linebacker Clint Ingram. Also poking in a touchdown along the way was former Jenks HS running back Kejuan Jones (senior). Adrian Peterson was possessed in the third quarter, he was dragging the ducks defenders. it was ridiculous.

The Detroit Pistons Ladies and Gents are now at 9 straight wins with last nights victory over the Heat putting them at 24-3 overall. Excellent streak can easily push it to ten this week, we'll just wait and see.

Yes indeed, its A Casey and I'm hotter than Nevada
Ready to break the steering column on your Impala
If I get caught, bail out, po'-po' I tell them holla
In court I never show up, like Austin Powers fa-zha

Randomly climbed the arbuckle mountains with ashleigh last week. it was pretty cool, the water was so clear and the sunset was gorgeous. it was almost as pleasing as the chili burger i had after.

Phils got another gift for me today im about to go see, Im pretty sure he bought another gun and were going to go fire it off at some skeet.

I have dinner with jews but i dont talk to strangers

i have debate later today (as usual) ive seriously managed to dedicate atleast 2 hours a day every day to debate (chrismas inclusive), most of the time its been more (six hours minimums), and ive worked at kohls virtually every day (which on my breaks at kohls ive been doing debate work). im getting a little tired. i also dont want to ever hear that im not doing enough work for this team (which because i cant be there at 10:30 this morning due to them telling me i had to be there at that time as of LAST NIGHT i probably will hear that, fuck it, ive done this every day and double the hours of everyone on the team(minus james and linzo, if me being late to do soemthing with my roommate which i planned last week pisses them off, they can go fuck themselves. i work better alone anyways, when its the whole team in one room its like watching a whole bunch of Chris Griffins trying to fuck a doorknob at the same time. sloppy, annoying, and it usually smells asstastic.

"Man, Fuck em if they cant take a joke"

i leave with a folk song

"smokin that weed, feelin fine,
got me a forty and a fat ass dime
ive been smokin that weed and im feeling fine
i got me a forty and a fat ass dime."

"Hey, theres a half-dead fat guy eating a dead fat guy upstairs...okay, so i guess were just looking the other way on this one arent we?" -stewie

A Casey is as sick as shit right now.

throat on fire, massive headache, no appetite. bad things.

great thanksgiving weekend until the sickness hit. played football wednesday afternoon, only scored one touchdown myself. my team did win though. it was good.

ate at both grandparents and had to go home early because i had to be at work at 4:30 friday morning. i conned 13 people into selling their souls to kohls (credit card applications).

god, i dont feel well, im going to sleep. peace out.

"Florida, Man just think somewhere in this state Jeb Bush is eating a puppy"

this has been a really weird weird week.

i dont think ive ever been so tripped out or confused as i have been this week

its been hard too though. ive gotten behind in classes because of debate and need good grades so ive had to bust my ass studying. However, i stilll need alot of money for rent and whatnot so ive had to take more hours.

my supervisor is still a jackass and were still fighting but that is inevitable.

last week, i had a funeral, then i had to go to North Carolina for a debate tournament at wake forest, then i had another funeral. it was real hard to deal with especially since small frustrating things kept happening to me like the hotel room getting cancelled and us running out of money. it just made it worse and worse. the people running my team friggin bother me sometimes. incompetence is bad.

this week was uneventful until friday. i went to stillwater to judge a debate tournament and the weirdest things happened. i finished judging and went back to hang out at my boy Russell Fisher's with eicher, nobles, and Madison...sidebar- nobles was being a little bitch and didnt hang out with us for more than twenty minutes and then lied to get out of it and left us. real bitch move dude. - it was great....kelly morris was there, we played in the church youth praise band together. i didnt ever think in a million years id be drinking and partaking in other activities with kelly morris. it was awesome.

hopefully this week will go better. or less confusing i guess...peace all

-AC